assalamualaikum :)
well , as you can see me entry is .
just a little bit from the hearts .
i write what i wanted to write , i feel what i wanted to feel , i never shared about this to anyone , i guess :'( i thought i can handle it to myself . i wrote in my diary , now i share this to anyone who reading this . first of all , if you think im too 'mintapuji' , please dont read this . you are welcome to exit my page here . :D like what i said , i write what i wanted to write . so ... . . . . . . .
well , lets started .
i love to be alone in my room . cuhz you know why ? there is no one , NO ONE can hurt my feelings when im in my room . i need some privacy in my room . i do a lot of things in my room , i laughed , i cried , i sing , i danced , i work out , i studied , im blogging , i jumped on my bed , i sleep even i talked to my self when im in my room . feel weird ? macam la kamu nda pernah kann . duhhh . why you all cant just deal with it ? i love my room . there is nothing like my room . kalau aku keluar pn , teda faedahnya pun , kena kasih sakit hati seja . kalau hati nii mmg betul kaca kan , aku dah lama mati sebab tiada hati, hancurr berderaii . HANCUR ok HANCUR :'( i can do anything and what everrr i want in my room , i also can hang myself in my room . but its just too stupid . i cant stand it no more , to those yg complain, specially my family . family , if you all can just hear my suffer-ness (lol) , i think you all understood me :l
i study when i feel wanted to study , so , dont push me whenn i need to study . idont really like it . dont push around about studies . cuhz , once you have no mood to study , you just fucked up . as in , you doom . serious la kayyy , jangan paksa orang untuk study when seseorang tu mmg x mau study , dia tau status dia mcm mna . dia bole handle sendiri . for me la .
and lastly i wanted to share about is , the real me heyy . well , first of all , aku mmg pemalas .aku malas mau buat kerja perempuan , like cuci piring, lipat baju , all that kinda thing . im sorry ibu :/ it is just me . dont like to do that , i prefer adventure sikit . mcm cuci kereta eventhough aku x pernah cuci satu kereta pn , hehe . well , anak dara suppose to help her mother in the kitchen aite ? well , aku mmg tolong pun ibu aku . tapi xla selalu , dan x pula jarang . its 50/50 laa . one more thing , and i think its truee . dalam kami adik beradik . aku ja yg byk tlg ibu aku , serious aku ckp . abg aku ? adik aku ? mmg jarang laa serious ckp . minta tolong sikit , aku yg kena suruh . aku x mau , ckp aku nda guna jadi anak perempuan , tapi kalau malar akuuuu jaaa yang buat kerja , mcm mna juga ? bukan selalu pn kamu buat kerja tuh semuaaa . JARANG ! itu yg buat hati aku sakit ok . sangat sakit . kalau aku complain , aku juga yg kena marahh . nda kaa kau stress hidup mcm tuh ? tidak ka ?! kalau aku minta tolong sikitttttttttttttt punyaa , sudaa macam aku suruh 500 hari pnya kerjaa . adik aku kena suruh buat kerjaa ntahh dua tiga kali ja pun , suda dia ckp diaa ja buat kerja . nda ka sakit hati ? nda paa la ba jugaa , kalau kamu mcm tuhh . nda paa . tapi , kamu nda bole kaa jaga hati orang lain ? aku yang sakit hatii selaluu . hargai la ba juga sikit . please la .
well , thats it . kalau tidak faham . syukur alhamdulillah . memang hidup aku macam tuh , tiada orang yang faham :/
assalamualaikum :)
